Argh!

Why-o-why can't I be talented??? Naturally talented,that is: you know-- the kind that doesn't require effort, or practice??

I picked up my violin tonight, after having ignored it for probably over a year-- and guess what?!
I'm still as mediocre as I was when I last put it down. Wah!

I have moments of ok-ness, when I play, which is usually interrupted by intervals of sucky-ness. I wish with all my heart I could have the discipline to practice everyday, but I don't. I also wish I could find a good teacher, who doesn't make me perform at the mall with little children who play better than me (long story). Wishwishwish.